
All night long I was laying and living through how we will manage tomorrow. What if driver forget about us and we miss our train. What if we don’t hear the alarm… i know it is so stupid but still I was nervous about all this things.
I want to be relaxed and calm, i don’t want to worry about all this staff, i just want to let the life go as it is. But I can’t. It is so hard for me, I want to control everything that happens with me.
My travels look like fighting with myself, with my fears. It seems that while travelling I am gradually faceted like gemstone, I want to believe I am….
Alarm rang at 5 am. At 5:20 we went out from the room, the driver was already waiting for us. We had a train at 6.15 to Jodhpur, but we got to train station very quickly, so around 5:40 we were standing on the platform in pitch dark.
It was cold. We went back and forth on the platform. The platform is gradually filled with people, but the train did not come.
6:15, 6:30, 6:45. It's cold. We found out that right on the platform there is a tea shop selling hot masala tea for a cheap price. We drank a couple of cups and it became slightly warmer.
7:00. We went into overcrowded waiting room to warm a little. There were no place to si down but anyway it was better than outside . Hindus spread out cardboard boxes right on the floor, sat down on them, and played cards.
7:30. Dawn. The air was filled with wet fog, it felt as if we were sitting in a big cloud. It felt like it became even colder.
8:00. Finally the train came. We were waiting for about 15 minutes until the passengers came out of the train and while train conductors were cleaning the car. We took a car of the 3rd class in this train, that was the highest in this train, all other cars were sleepers class. It was warm in the car and we want to sleep. We took out our sleeping bags and climbed to the very top shelf (there are three shelves on each side in this type of car). I fell asleep very quickly, even though we slept together on one shelf and I felt a little constrained.

